My Wittle Skittle

So lets be honest I don't have the most traditional story of pregnancy BY ANY MEANS. I'm not married, I'm probably not old enough to have a baby, and I am an incredibly selfish human being. I was still in my fairytale thinking of what life after the wedding would be like. I look forward to that honey moon phase where my fiancé and I would make each other breakfast in bed, cuddle all night (without interruption), and send each other cute text messages even though we were in the same room together. Sooooo I was not always thrilled to when I learned a baby would be ruining my plans. I WAS SOO SELFISH. All I could think about was myself, what others would say and everything I had to give up; I'm just keeping it Real. 

BUT.................

I remember the day I embraced my pregnancy and feel head over heels for my baby. Its almost like it was yesterday, or last month, since It Was Last Month. I went to the doctors office because I was having some abnormal symptoms and I wanted to make sure everything was okay.  I was only seven weeks at the time but my doctor decided to do an ultrasound so he could here the babies heartbeat. P.S. If you have never had an ultrasound before I am about to prepare you for What Really happens in an ultrasound.

In the movies when a woman gets an ultrasound it is a lovely scene of a beautiful moment. Then she finds out the sex of the baby and her life is complete. NOT IN REAL LIFE! 

So (in my Mr. Miyagi voice) Sit down young grasshopper and allow me to teach you something. This is what really happens. In real life you lay on a cold bed in a dark room and some lady comes in and tells you to pull your pants down before she proceeds to rub THE COLDEST LOTION IN HISTORY on your belly. Yea, I know it already sounds like the beginning of a Law and Order SVU episode. Surely the doctors office hasn't fully thought through their ultrasound routine yet. So although, for some of you, it will be the happiest day of your life, It will also be the weirdest day of your life. Just something to remember before you go. Your Welcome.

Moving On..

So there I was laid out on the table with the oily lotion on my belly as the nurse proceeded to use the machine to find the location of my baby. For awhile I could see nothing but a black whole on the screen (that black whole was my uterus); And Then It Happened!! A tiny image appeared on the screen the size of a skittle and right next to that skittle was the skittles heartbeat!!!! My WHOLE HEART Melted. I was love struck. That skittle was my baby. My Baby. I was Making a Human Being in this little belly of mine. HAHA take that all you rocket scientist in the world. You may be making Rockets But I'm making a Human. BOOYAAAHH.

 I felt so amazing and so filled with love. For the first time I realized I wanted to be the best mommy ever to my little skittle. And from that moment on through the all of the morning sickness (which is really morning, afternoon, and night sickness), all of the thousands of middle-of-the-night trips to the bathroom, fatigue, mood swings and all the other crazy "goodness" that comes with pregnancy, I made a decision that I was in it for the long haul. And Ever since I haven't looked back.